“We do not know what to say or do, but our eyes are on you.”(2 Chronicles vs12)
I was driving my two youngest to art class yesterday and that song “Oceans” came on the radio. I absentmindedly started singing it. Then, it was like a brick wall hit me. I had to stop and hold back the tears. Is that what I really truly want? Am I truly ready to ask for such a relationship with Christ? Ezekiel walked that way and God took his wife as a sign act, and he wasn’t even allowed to mourn her. Hannah got her son after years of begging and so many tears, and had to give him up to God and leave him at the temple after weaning him. Mary was blessed to carry our savior, and had the privilege of watching her son be tortured, humiliated and ultimately crucified. What am I truly asking to step into, if I ask for that deep of a relationship?
“Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders…..
Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander
And my faith will be made stronger
In the presence of my Savior”,
What am I asking for and what am I ready to sacrifice, really? Would I be ready to say goodby to my husband? What if one of my children or grandchildren were to die or go missing?
My son is currently out of country - God forbid something happen to him (and believe me, a moms mind can think the worst) but can I give that up to God? Truly?
We sing songs of worship but we don’t know what we ask for. Be careful. Words have power. We truly are like little lambs, not knowing what we do or say. We need a shepherd that we can trust, knowing it is worth it, no matter the cost.
All I can do as I contemplate this, is keep my eyes on Jesus, my savior and my God. Keep doing the next right thing, one day at a time, believing it is worth it. When the time comes, and the price is asked of me, whatever it may be, that I will listen to my shepherd and walk confidently with my Father.