It’s not that I don’t love you, it’s just that I want to do my own thing. I want to explore my own paths and live my own life! I want to be my own person and have some fun. I’m tired of always doing what’s YOU want me to do and being the one to take the high road. I’m tired of always having to to what’s right. I want to live! I mean what’s wrong with that? I don’t see anyone else complaining. I mean, from here it seems that they are all doing just fine and I’m the one that’s getting picked on. I get made fun of and snickered at. So really, when you look at it, what’s in it for me? Why am I even staying this course?
1 John 5 vs 11 tells me “And this is the testimony, that God gave us eternal life, and this life is in His Son. Whoever has the Son has life. Whoever does not have the son does not have life.”
I have argued with God many times the argument above. I get tired. Don’t you? I believe that God would welcome my argument. He would rather I throw my little pity party in my prayer time with Him... and then go into the world and obey, than just go. Verse 3 -4 says “For this is the live of God, that we keep his commandments. And his commandments are not burdensome. Fir everyone who has been borne of God overcomes the world. And this is the victory that has overcome the world - our faith.” If I didn’t have faith, I wouldn’t even throw my fit and argue with God. I wouldn’t have my moment. I wouldn’t cry and apologize and then go out and obey God’s commandments; even while being made fun of. I’m not perfect. I am human. That’s ok. But I don’t give up, and I keep talking to God and I keep trying, and I keep obeying.